I think this is how love goes.. check yes or no.

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Tomorrow is Wednesday and obviously after that comes Thursday and then.. I get some time to go home.
I can't wait.. I have been looking forward to it for awhile.
Although it doesn't seem like it's going to be the perfect trip home.. it will be nice.
Obviously Alan will be missing which I guess I can unfortunately say I am getting used to.
I wish it wasn't that way but I guess that is the next natural step in this situation.
Learning to get along with life when you can't be with the people you love.
I keep hoping he will show up but.. so much disappointment makes getting my hopes up more difficult than usual.
I jsut wish everyday to see him soon.

Other than the upcoming vacation, This extern is flying by..and I am ready for it to be over with.
I want to get into my second year and finish at CIA.
Have a degree already and say I'm worth something.

ugh life.

<3 Be Peaceful.

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hmm..

Even though I have been working my butt off here at disney I am happy that I am making some money again finally.
Also its nice to hear from my bosses that I am doing a good job. That makes my bad days a little brighter.
Other than work I am ahead of schedule on my modules and would like to keep it that way.. keep my self stress free.
Today I have the day off then I have to work 11 days straight which sucks but that leads straight into me going home for a few days. Which I am really excited and happy about. Even though one thing is obviously going to be missing. He is in my heart and knows I will be thinking of him the whole time.
Speaking of missing today I actually missed New York for just a few seconds. It was weird but I know I will no longer miss it once I get back there lol.
I am itching to go and get this schooling over though so I can move on.

Never the less.. life is going pretty okay.

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private.

I am me.
and I am happy even when I'm not.
I am happy even when I'm not smiling..
that just the way I am.
In public and in private.
please stop telling me to smilee

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10.10.10

i dont remember you looking any better then again i dont remember you

depressing to say the least.
im not sure how to keep my emotions in check anymore.
i feel like life can only get like sixty percent good anymore because such important things are missing from my life
i wish i could explain how i feel but no one understands
im tired.
tired of a lot of things.
including sleeping in this bed..especially alone.

be peaceful.
ten.ten.ten.

Two firsts in a row.

Yesterday I completed my first Dessert bar shift by myself and tonight I completed my first PM Bread shift.
And overall I have to say it was not an epic fail.
I felt confident leaving my dessert bar shift because one of my kind co-workers acknowledged how well I did.
and even tho I made a mistake during my bread shift I think I did an alright job.
Tomorrow is day two of training on bread shift. I hope they don't put me on that shift alone anytime soon.
I cant believe the weeks are flyinggggg by. This extern will be over in NO time.
Tomorrow is my Friday and I cannot wait to finally have two days off in a row.
Its the good life.

Also.. I love my boyfriend.. per usual ;)

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Dessert Bar.

Today at work was.. probably the best day so far.
I enjoyed what I was doing and even though we were slow the day flew by.
And luckily for me flew right into my mom and dad coming to Orlando to visit me for a few hours.
It was a nice day over all.
And it was nice to have some much needed conversation that will hopefully continue.
I am happy to say I will continue on the dessert bar tomorrow and hopefully be able to do a majority of it by myself.
Then per usual return home to my darling roommate Lori's face.
Life is looking okay right now.
I cannot believe I am already in my 5th week of externship.  
Next will come week 10 in a blink of an eye an then I will be done and on the brink of having an associates degree.
I am ready for new things to come and ready to do some new and challenging things.
=)


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