LIKE OMG IT'S FEBRUARY !

finally freakin February. (< like what I did there with the F's) =D ahah
anyway! I am enthusiastic. This means I go home next month and my cupcake graduates super soon and my long board comes super soon and its just all good stuff!
Also I have been thinking a lot about my future which is exciting too.. but I shall not let it surpass the present and I am gunna try to have fun day to day in the mean time.

as just a blurb before I end this blog..
Even though I may not be the happiest in the current situations.. my life could be worse and I know this.
I try not to rub off on people... my complaining and hatred are purely my own venting and in no way ment for other people to take into considerations for their own lives. I still fully promote happiness!
sooooo.. BE HAPPY! or as happy as you cannn be. =)

<3 Be Peaceful

Blog blog blogggg

3:20 in the AM.. 

Just watched most of cool runnings..

Had dinner at Chili's for Ming's(a guy from my group) birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MING!

Also did some shopping per usual with Ally this weekend.

Overall it was not very eventful but it wasn't the worst weekend of my life.

This coming week will mark 8 weeks until I am Home in Florida and today is 54 days.

I am happy to be in my second week of Cookies and Tarts but the stress is starting to build for next block and the 2nd term practical.

I need to start preparing.

I cannot believe my practical is already next block. In B-block I thought this day was years away.

Other things this week include... the arrival of my long board that Chelsie Collins so graciously purchased for me. I am super excited for this even tho there is snow every where and I can't ride it much.

I will ride it in the hall way like I do my scooter.

Also this coming Sunday Cameron(another guy from my group) and I will be making desserts for skills night which should be fun.

I am being optimistic this will be a good week.

Soon it will be the 18th and hopefully I will be able to talk to my boo. =)

<3 Be Peaceful

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you..

There was a night.. I fell asleep watching you sleep
You looked so peaceful and your body was so warm.
Your breathing was heavy and your heart beat was steady.
I kept the light on so I could see you lay in peace
It felt like my head belonged on your chest, a puzzle piece fitting into its match.
It was that night I realized you are my soul mate.
I have loved you all along.
without you I am lost.


<3 Be Peaceful

A million tears I'll cry before the end.

I am so annoyed I honestly don't know what to do.
I didn't know people could be so immature and unprofessional.
If I have to do this everyday for the next year I will either drop out or punch myself in the head until I can't comprehend how annoying the people around me are.
I thought most people learned in middle school the proper and improper ways to act and to treat others. Apparently some people missed out on that lesson.

Please get me out of here.

FRIDAYYYYYYY

The end of the week again.. hard to believe January is almost over.
and it is now less than two months until I go on extern. Feels like yesterday I was in B-block dreading going to Gastronomy now I'm in H block making cookies everyday and piping chocolate for homework.
I have to say I quite enjoy it.
Another day down, another day closer to the sunny beach.
Other happenings are pretty much non existent.
I guess the simple life is okay for now.
As always just missing one thing.

<3 Be Peaceful

p.s. count down is at 57 today.

Well that was a buzz kill

I had a pretty good day over all.. a few bumps in the road but nothing major.
I am enjoying my new cookies class and enjoying being partners with Cameron
Although, I'm sure I am not going to want to look at another cookie for weeks afterward.
Today we made Black and White cookies and did the checkerboard and also made some short bread cookies.
Tomorrow it is soft macaroon time where my team will be making Green Tea flavored.
I wish we would have gotten vanilla but I will live and probably just steal other peoples who do have vanilla. =D
But towards the end of my class day the dreaded happened.
The thing I have been trying to avoid since October happened.
I missed a phone call.
actually not only one but THREE.
I know you're thinking in your head "so you missed a phone call, they will call back, no biggy"
but!
THIS WAS NOT JUST ANY PHONE CALL!
this was a phone call I cant return and phone call I needed to answer.
A phone call from My Boyfriend.

I suppose... I will just wait for the next one.. Who knows when that will be.
I'm bummed. I could have really used a loving phone call... to help get me through the stress and annoyance a little longer. =/

<3 Be Peaceful

Surrounded with good reads

I try to make it a point to read a good book or two every now and then 

it seems sometimes its reading time and sometimes its not

I could have an amazing book but just not be in the mood but once I get into a book I could go five books straight with out even realizing it.

I guess this is an ON moment.

Currently I am reading a book I so graciously received from my boyfriend and I am lovinggg it.

Also this weekend while shopping with Ally I came across a book titled How to Be a better Foodie

I started reading it and am completely fascinated. 

I couldn't be more content with my readings.

I also have many culinary books I need to settle down with but.. for now we will take it one at a time.. or currently two =)

Other things I would like to discuss is my realization of other people taking things for granted

It's fine if you want to be ungrateful and act as if you have the worst life but please try not to let it back fire on me will ya?

I know that I write as if I am down on life sometimes but such is life.. through all of this though I am THANKFUL for the life and opportunities I have. 

And I wish more people could see it that way.

I try to remember this daily and will try harder. Everyone should I think. Life is good even on it's worst day.

<3 Be Peaceful

p.s. Chelsea I MISS YOU TOO.

I'd rather be alone if I couldn't be with you.

The days are going by... not so quickly..
Maybe if I slept more the day would pass quicker.
Tomorrow should be a lovely day.. Ally and I are going to dinner with our friend Steve as a late Birthday celebration.

Anyways... I am bummed because I have been optimistic that it was possible for me to go see my darlings graduation from boot camp but...
Today the hope was lost. This in fact will not be happening.
I'm sad and disappointed but.. this is the real life right?
Life can't be simple or easy...and I cannot have what I want.
Unfortunately this means I have no idea when will be the next time I will see him but.. I guess I will just keep looking ahead to that day.

No class tomorrow... New class on Tuesday..

That's all I really have to write about today.

<3Be Peaceful

3,2,1. 1,2,3 what the heck is bothering me

Christine Capwell coined this saying and I swear she is what has been getting me through the days lately.
If I have not mentioned her.. She has been my partner for this block and I adore her
She is funny, intelligent, and caring. and without her I think I might have punched myself in the head every day this block or maybe just X-ed out.
I am thankful to have gotten to work with her.
Anyways, today this saying helped to calm me down a little.
I think I have been getting more and more frustrated with things because it has been building up for so long and I just can't hold it in anymore.
And  have been superrrr stressed
And the more stressed I am... The sicker I get.. Imagine that.

Ughhhh... I'm so over itttttttttttttttttttttttt
Can I graduate already?

<3 Be Peaceful

Learning the facts..

Today was a good day..
we are prepping for grand buffet in class
I don't think I have talked about grand buffet on here yet.. so basically it is a buffet that certain culinary and baking classes put on every 3rd Thursday of the block, the day before graduation.
There is a ton of really good and most of the time unusual food as well as amazing and delicious desserts and breads.
I learned early on when I got to this school that if you CAN attend.. You DO and you get there early and wait in line because you will for sure want to be one of the first in the dining hall to A)Grab a whole table for you and your friends and B) raid the dessert stations and get as much fatty food as possible... this includes multiple trips back and forth and the covering of an entire table with Bread and Butter plates full of desserts.
Only after you have gotten a portion of any dessert you may want to try then do you go and scope out the food selection. and you will have to cut in line, butt in front of others and jump in line with any friend or acquaintances you might see.
Over all it's pretty sweet and this block is the first block we actually get to contribute.
In breads class we did send down bread but this time we actually get to interact and be part of the buffet.
So I am pretty excited about Grand Buffet and then it will be Friday and Pastry Tech will be over.
I am hoping to finish this class with a solid A and move on to Cookies

I cannot believe how fast January has gone by..seems like yesterday I was in B block counting the days till Christmas break and now I am in G block and will be going on extern EXTREMELY soon.
Its insane.. and let me tell you.. the pressure is onnnnn!

that's all for tonight <3 Be peaceful

Everythings so perfect it's alittle scary...

Having so much to loose is nice.

Perfection is not something I have often strove for..
I want to be good.. maybe better than some but not perfect.. perfect leaves no room for growth.
But knowing life is going pretty well and I am happy and I am doing well in class
makes everything seem..almost perfect.

Despite the bad.. there was good.

I had a wonderful day.
I am feeling(health wise) muchhh better than I was
I got a letter from my amazinggg boyfriend today
I am currently downloading Sims3(thank you Al...yet another homework distraction)
My homework is dunzos..
I get to sleep in tomorrow
It's the last week of Pastry tech and I hold High hopes for the fast approaching February
Lifes good.
I'm also happy that I am happy.
A lot has been going on around me and it's hard to see through it all to the happiness.
I'm stayin strong though!

Also, I realized today that I am extremely excited to start a new block.. I think it's going to be a fun class with a good knowledgeable Chef. HOPEFULLY, I get a good partner to go along with it.

Today was good. Tomorrow will be better. Optimism
Hope you had a good day too! =D

<3 Be Peaceful

I'll stop the world and melt with you

Today...

is Sunday

My Fathers birthday[HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYY! (:  ]

69 days on the count down

and a good day.

I feel like progress was made today and for that I am greatful

This week will pass quickly I think and before I know it..

I will be in a new class with yet another new chef.

and I will be one block closer to Florida.

I feel optimism radiating through my skin

as if everyone can see the excitement and longing.

I am glad to feel happy about something and 

I am proud of myself for dealing with things the way I have been.. 

I feel like I am proving to myself that I have grown these few months I have been here

I want to grown up to be respectable to everyone, in the chance people will respect me.

Moral of the story?

despite all the bad, despite the drama, and of course stress.. I'm Happy.

Wise words..

The glass is always full.. half water, half air.

<3 Be Peaceful

Sickies.

Seems like I'm always sick these days and to be frank..
It's frustrating.
I want to be healthy again and being healthy would enable a lot of things in my life
like maybe actually wanting to go to class.
I just need to go back to Florida and actually go to the doctor...
not so sure I will have anymore time down there then I do up here though.
I thought this was supposed to be my prime?

ughhhhhhhhhh!


<3 Be Peaceful and feel better than I do.

Self edit your mouth.

Well folks... Today is officially my First... yes Very First Snow Day.

I am neither excited nor thrilled about this for two reasons...

We were supposed to have no school Monday... now we do to make up for it. So the plans I was trying to make that day no longer exist.

Secondly, I have things I need to get done and there is a crap ton of snow being dumped on everything... including Lola my little baby car.

But I suppose I will survive.

I would rather a hurricane day though.. for the record.

Tonight, I hung out with Ally.. per usual.

And we had an amazing time(if I do say so myself)

also I was quiet productive in doing my costing project which is not due until next Tuesday.

as well as doing my piping homework.. which I did at 2:30 Am... apparently this is when I am at my prime because my piping was 100% better than yesterdays piping.(good stuff)

and while I'm on the subject.... Who would have ever ThUnk that I would be piping chocolate for my homework and making edible roses... Not I!

I definitely did not sit in my Kindergarten desk and think..."hmmm you know.. I think I might grow up and play with chocolate for homework.."

but... LOOKY LOOKY! and I'm Lovin' it

While hanging out with Ally I also decided self editing of ones mouth may be the most important thing to learn how to do in the whole world.
Self editing may be hard, frustrating, and damn near impossible.
But it is possible and is very rewarding once mastered.
This was also partly due to the fact that Ally's mother who I much admire would be greatly disappointed in me if I did not Self edit my own mouth.  
Good lesson learned... I can do it with Chef.. now I need to practice real life.
Although... since I have moved to NY I believe my self editing has greatly improved and has even jumped to an almost mastered level.

To end this blog I would like to say.. I think I bruised my ribs from coughing to hard.(this is not funny)

and that Chelsea Allshouse is my Best friend for life.(SHOUTOUT!)

<3 Be Peaceful and HAPPY HUMP DAY!

The days are short

I wake up late everyday... I say "I'm gunna wake up in time for breakfast" but..

without fail every morning the alarm beeps, I turn it off and go back to sleep.

This is the down side of PM classes.. not having anything to do until 2 pm creates bad habits

My goal of the week.. start the cycle to break this habit

Other happenings of the week since it is Monday..

do my costing project so I don't have to worry about it

I have a few scholarships to do

The work load is light

Tonight I will skip all of this and celebrate or read because today is that kind of day

Last night I started another count down until the day I will be warm in Florida again.. the number is kinda high so we will spare the daily updates for now

We made it 68 last time so I am optimistic 75 will go down easily.

Words of wisdom for the day:

Surround your self with people who make YOU happy. Other peoples negativity and bad habits/attitudes will rub off on you. Beware. 

<3 Be Peaceful and have a wonderful Monday.

You are my sunshine but long distance is hard.

I sleep in your shirt, next to your jacket

I wake up to pictures of you

I turn on my phone and see us together

I think about you constantly and carry your letters with me

I want to wear purple shoes with everything just cuz it reminds me of you

please come back soon.. I miss you too much.

Three months have passed already but really.. it's only been a week and a half.

10.10.10.<3

<3 Be Peaceful

Laugh it makes you feel good.

To start with... 

For your listening pleasure... Hero by Enrique Iglesias

Ideally you will jam out to this much like I did on the way back from Palace diner at 3 am

I am really glad I decided to get out of bed and actually go on the adventure

I haven't laughed that hard in a really long time and you can never go wrong with good food and good company

Next.. I would like to talk about the fun I plan on taking part in this weekend..

racket ball

swimming

chicken dinner

club maybe

PB&J

Pizza

maybe a card game?

It's gunna be a good weekend... I can feel it already

and I will be glad to have Allyson Ball by my side because she is an amazing friend

and I know I have said it a million times but she deserves the recognition.

Class wise.. I am trying really hard to do well because I really need an A to boost my GPA a little more

It's good but I just want it a little higher just as my goal

But I feel like it's super hard to get a good grade when you are never really told how you did during the day

so even if I am failing... I don't know that I need to change.

It's frustrating but I suppose I have been doing alright so I just need to make more effort... stay proactive and learn and I will stay on the right path. 

Lastly... I love college but hate winter up north.

Winter in Florida was always a really nice time of year.. summer always topped it but winter was nice

Here... Winter is not so nice

I trecked through snow and melted snow all day today and I hate it

I love this school and everything it has to offer me but I hate the snow.

Yea sure its pretty.. when it hits the ground..then it becomes dirty and melted and gross and cold.

ughhhh! the northern life style.... ORLANDO I DREAM OF YOU!!!

only 3 months until I will be in sunshiny Florida and in the land where dreams come true.

=)

I would like to end with a quote my mother sent me...

There comes a time in life, when you walk away from all the drama and people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh, forget the bad, and focus on the good. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy.

<3 Be Peaceful

Its been awhile...

Its finally Friday.

Friday is a good day

I haven't blogged in a long time.. But I have been being highly productive despite still being sick and kinda stressed.

I have been happy being productive though 

Actually being productive lately has relieved a lot of stress which in turn brings happiness yea?

Other going on's is I am in a new class.. Pastry Techniques with Chef Rassomando

She is nice and I really like the class.. it is more along the lines of things I like to bake.

My class schedule is dwindling down and I am realizing just how close I really am to going on extern... something that felt years away just a few classes ago.

I am relieved that I already have my extern set up for the most part..one less thing to worry about.

Regardless of if people have heard bad things about it or not I think it is the right place for me and I will be successful there.  

Also in my Interpersonal Communication class everyone was assigned a research paper and mine is about food stylist; what it is, how much you make, what skills you need, etc.

I enjoyed doing the paper because it gave me a chance and reason to look into something I am interested in for the future.

I discovered a lot about food styling and it kind of verified that it is something I think I would enjoy doing.

I am going to try to network a little and figure out if I could get a mentor or just some advice to learn a little more about the career.

Lastly, I am reading a really interesting book about the evolution of man. I will keep you updated on my agreements and thoughts.

That's all for the night... go to sleep happy, wake up happy.... go to sleep with a headache, wake up with a headache? I hope not.

<3 Be Peaceful